Prayer...

I was reading my Utmost for His Highest on 7-Aug and this paragraph came alive to me.

Think about your own circumstances. Are you so closely identified with the Lord’s life that you are simply a child of God, continually talking to Him and realizing that everything comes from His hands? Is the eternal Child in you living in His Father’s house? Is the grace of His ministering life being worked out through you in your home, your business, and in your circle of friends? Have you been wondering why you are going through certain circumstances? In fact, it is not that you have to go through them. It is because of your relationship with the Son of God who comes, through the providential will of His Father, into your life. You must allow Him to have His way with you, staying in perfect oneness with Him.

The life of your Lord is to become your vital, simple life, and the way He worked and lived among people while here on earth must be the way He works and lives in you.

Hubs and I have been wrestling with each other, family and God on whether should we go back to Spore for good. Main reason is because our PR will be expiring end of next year, and in the current situation, the Spore govt is not giving PR status easily anymore. In fact, with more stringent criteria compared when were there back in 2007.

Because of our lacksidal attitude, we still have not gone down on our knees to pray for His ultimate direction in our lives, and in our family. And reading this, really is causing a stir in my heart. I have to come to term with myself that we would be here in our homeland for good. If that is so, dear Lord, please calm my restless heart and grant me peace.

It is nearing 10months since I came back, and I just do not have the peace of mind to stay back here. Yes, it's true that if we went back, we will have to strife for everything in our lives over there. But then again, spiritually, I think that we might grow stronger and serve well there.

Either way, dear Lord, please lay the paths before us, and show us Your ways... that peace that surpasses through all understanding might come into our hearts. Amen.